31st October 2024
It is said that this time of year is when the veil between the worlds is at its thinnest, when connections with ancestors and lost loved ones are felt most easily.
I’m noticing a different closeness with the past…that the space between me and unwanted feelings and experiences has shrunk. Glimpses of people I’d rather not see again, ghosts of bad experiences, whispers of mistakes made, pickled fears, are all scratching at my back. Little micro haunts and taunts provoking another round of navigating old wounds.
But although they feel close by, they also remind me how far Ive come, my provenance, and Ive decided that there are occasions when it's OK not to look over your shoulder. That to always have your eye in the rear view mirror brings its own challenge. Sometimes you can leave what's behind, behind, and face forward even if it feels impolite to your own experience.
The chatterings are still there, dark and toothy, but I’m not going to turn my head.
It's the most vibrant autumn I can remember and there's much more pleasing things to look at.
Image from ELEMENTAL a performance photographic collaboration with Holly Revell.
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